i have severe mixed emotions regarding this issue.
mostly evoking vocabulary such like

festering, bloody-raw and curdled.

yes, dear friends, today im going to tell you my
personal vendetta with Insecurity.

pretty simple word, no?
fear. and look what this single feeling does to us?
where does jealousy and envy stemmed from?
where does anger and hatred burn forth?
where does hurt and disappointment spring forth?
i could go on and on-
how it tears people and their lives apart;
how it pulls people from their loved ones!
how it sows doubt, greed and bitterness-
how it blinds, deafens, mutes and
renders a person completely defensive,
yet totally weak and vulnerable.

is it possible to be completely secure?
i believe so, yes!
How? (PastorHow!hehehs ^^)
to simply trust completely in the King of Kings
and the Lord of Lords-
Jesus Christ! (yeh, and thats the truth!)
He understands, and He heals.
He knows, and He forgives.
He comforts and He loves.
every single thing you have felt- worry, fear,
doubt, anger, jealousy, emotional, stressed.

guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus,
whose peace surpasses all understanding-

He is perfect.

my little sister asked me if i belived in perfection.
i said, no.
so God is not perfect.
i am not perfect, But God is perfect.
God is not perfect, he made mistakes.
so what did you think is God's mistake?
He created Satan.

friends, i believe God did not create Satan.
certainly, i know that if He willed,
the Devil would have never even existed.
i do not count myself worthy to decide why there
is evil and cruelty in this world, but certainly i believe;

that there will come a day of Judgement.
and when that day comes,

all will be brought to light.

dear Lord, i know that its too easy for me to delete this post.
i can easily press the 'delete' button- and i would not
care if people will be upset or offended or such.

but i really hope that this helped someone; who has found
an answer in this post for the question in his/her heart.
to stand up for what i believe;
to lead a life the reflection of You.